The weight of grief used to feel heavy.I carried it with me wherever I went.Tears were neatly tucked into my heart and belly. In my younger years, I didn’t even know how to grieve. I remember my mom telling me about a tradition in Azerbaijan, the country where I was born. When a family lost a loved one, they would invite—or sometimes hire—a special mourner. This woman would wail and cry aloud, invoking tears in others, so grief would not be buried but honored together, communally. Those...
17 days ago • 1 min read
I used to keep grief at arms length. I repressed it into the deepest crevices of my body. I held it tightly in my chest and my belly. Honestly, I didn’t even know how to grieve. In my 20’s I remember the floodgates opening for the first time. I was sitting in the park and feeling the warmth of the sunshine on my skin. The warmth of the sunshine also landed on my chest. I felt tears rolling down my face as the frozenness inside me melted. Grief showed up again me after a romantic breakup....
20 days ago • 1 min read
Today, as I guided a group through a Loving Kindness Meditation—extending benevolent wishes such as “May all beings be at peace. May all beings be safe. May all beings live with ease”—one participant shared that she struggled with this practice. She said, “That’s not the world we are living in.” I acknowledged her truth. I too am aware of the world we inhabit, fractured by conflict and pain. Yet this practice is not about denying reality—it is about opening to another one. It is about holding...
24 days ago • 2 min read
My journey of self-development began nearly 20 years ago. It all started with a book by Carl Rogers… then Carl Jung… then Paulo Coelho. You see, I was searching for myself. And in the pages of those books, I found glimmers of who I truly was. They offered hope. A sense of possibility. They met me in moments when I didn’t have anyone to talk to about the deep conflicts and quiet pain I was holding inside. Since then, I’ve invested over $80,000 in therapy, coaching, healing work, and spiritual...
about 1 month ago • 1 min read
Hi Reader, Just dropping in to let you know that Insight Timer has been recognized as the best app in 2025 by New York Times! I’ve been a user and a teacher on that app for several years now. Although, I haven’t been active on it lately, I sometimes drop in to offer live events and I intend to upload more meditations on the in the near future. I also recommend this app to all the clients I work with and to people who express interest in meditation. If you are not on it, I invite you to try it...
about 2 months ago • 1 min read
Hi @Reader, Over the past few months, I’ve been offering Akashic Records Readings, and I continue to be amazed and deeply moved by the feedback I’ve received. To be honest, six months ago I didn’t even imagine I’d be doing this kind of work. But a series of synchronicities guided me to the Records—and now I feel incredibly honored to share their wisdom with others. If you’re not familiar with the Akashic Records, the simplest way to think of them is as an energetic archive—a kind of spiritual...
2 months ago • 2 min read
Dear Reader, I am super excited to tell you that I was recently invited to join a team of experienced practitioners on a powerful new project that speaks to my heart—and I think it might speak to yours too. If you've ever found yourself navigating a health challenge, then you probably know how overwhelming it can feel. You’re trying to make sense of conflicting advice from various experts. You’re facing uncertainty, which can bring up fear. And oftentimes, you’re doing it all alone. Now…...
3 months ago • 1 min read
Hi Reader, I’ll be hosting a FREE live meditation tomorrow @ 5 PM PST on Insight Timer App. The theme of the meditation is: Reclaim Your Peace-15 Minutes of Silence. As the pace of the world accelerates and collective chaos grows louder, many of us are feeling the call to slow down and return to stillness. I personally found myself craving quiet moments—simple pauses in the day to unplug from the noise, the demands, and information overload. If you’re feeling overwhelmed, scattered, or simply...
3 months ago • 1 min read
Hi dear, If you’ve been feeling pulled in a hundred directions… if your body feels on edge… if you feel like you’re constantly reacting to the chaos around you—this message is for you. I just released a new YouTube video on how to move from external chaos to deep, grounded inner peace. We explore why chaos might feel familiar, how it affects your nervous system, and I’ll guide you through simple but powerful grounding practices that reconnect you to your body and your truth. 🎥 Watch it here:...
4 months ago • 1 min read