I used to keep grief at arms length.

I repressed it into the deepest crevices of my body.

I held it tightly in my chest and my belly.

Honestly, I didn’t even know how to grieve.

In my 20’s I remember the floodgates opening for the first time.

I was sitting in the park and feeling the warmth of the sunshine on my skin. The warmth of the sunshine also landed on my chest.

I felt tears rolling down my face as the frozenness inside me melted.

Grief showed up again me after a romantic breakup.

Grief knocked on my door up when my grandma passed.

Grief visited me when I was transitioning from jobs that no longer served me.

Grief, I realized, was a visitor that I needed to become more intimate with.

I needed to be-friend it, so it no longer felt so big or so scary or so overwhelming.

After reading books about grief and working with people who helped me to process it, I feel much more comfortable with it now days.

I KNOW that it’s futile to resist.

The more I surrender to the flow of grief, the easier my grieving process feels.

As the grief moves through, I feel lighter. I feel more spacious. I feel like something new is on the horizon.

And...

I feel an integration weaving its way inside of me.

Life experiences turning into wisdom.

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One of the reasons I decided to create a course on grief was so people could have the resources I wish I did when I was moving through the emotional rollercoaster... not having a map... nor a guide at the time.

I am currently offering a grief course at a discounted rate of $59. The offer is valid till August 31st.

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Be well.

Warmly,

Gayane Kulikyan